almost fell sick...

finally i'm in States, in San Fransisco exactly..after the 6 hours flight to seoul then 10 hours flight to here..damn..i couldnt focus n work well during the flight to seoul..hmh..dunno what happen maybe it's bcoz i had too many days off n things that happened recently cause me like that.i really dissapoint my leader, but luckily she's nice person so she helped a lot.then when i try to do my best during flight to SFO, i got a headache n my stomach feels bloated till i have to rest in first class after the service..haiz..dunno what's happening with me maybe i'm just too tired..thanks God i feel better now.then it's 10 p.m. local time here, n i'm gonna try to sleep after this coz tmr i'm gonna go to some interesting places like alcatraz n golden gate bridge..wow! i can't wait to be thr..!!hope i can find way to go thr myself bcoz if join the tour it's gonna burn my US$..haha so i'm trying to save so i can also shop ard.. :) then today when i sat on the seat during landing, suddenly i realize one thing which is very impt to me..that i shouldn't keep wasting my tears thinking of the past that couldn't back..??coz everyone is living for tomorrow rite not for the past..well that's absolutely right..!!but again action speaks louder that words..able to say also must able to do it..!ganbatte.. ^-^

starting all over again..

well i should have sleeping rite now coz i have to wake up at 4 later to prepare to go to seoul..gonna be oversea for a week..haiz..actually i don't feel wanna go but i have no choice.hope it's gonna be a nice trip..!my first time to go San Fransisco too..ya hopefully!!then i just came back from celebrating my cousin's bday which is 1 day ahead than me.it was fun everybody was so happy thr..plus i got a super huge bday card from my niece n nephew..they made it themselves, really so cute of them..what an effort..!!at least it can cheer me up a lil bit today. hmh..still hurt coz of something on my bday ystrdy..but i really have to start all over again coz this person (the one who affect me a lot..) also gonna start a new life soon so i think i should too..just that i dunno why after everything that has been done to me i don't hate this person at all..i still wanna congrats for starting a new life soon.just that i'm still fragile now so i'm not ready to accept this person again in my life.i should learn to protect my own feeling now.enough all the pain that i bear myself.now it's time to fix the broken heart..jia you..!i need to move on n so is this person..

unforgettable bday..

like the title, i really have an unforgettable bday this year..haiz..why should it happen when i turn 24??but good or bad things happened to me, i still believe everything will be good when it's the time..just that i thought everything will be wonderful today but..something just went wrong this evening.not coz of the dinner.it was really good n i got a surprise cake somemore..my fridge is full of my bday cake now..hahaha.how i wish i can say it out what the things that went wrong on my bday..tird of keeping it myself but i dunno why i can't..dun wanna involve anybody here.whatever it is it's my fault couldn't blame anybody of it.maybe like my fren said what had happened is "blessing in disguise.." i hope so..so trying to sleep now after drinking a glass of red wine.i really feel tired both my body n my mind but..i still need to do few things b4 i rest myself.coz tmr i'll make sure it's a better day than today..

happy bday sil..

woke up late this morning coz couldn't sleep well last night..my handphone keep ringing coz of the greetings sms that i received :) plus midnite surprise cake from my housemates that i nv expected at all..!can't help to fall tears..see my plain sleepy face..!n this morning when i check my fb wah so surprised..!my wall full of the greetings from frenz..so glad to know that..n finally..i've made a plan for tonite..DINNER at the flyer..sounds great..!i rem one month ago, my wish is to go singapore flyer n spend my bday with the loved one. but, since it's impossible then dinner with my family in sg also not bad.they're my loved one too..i should've thank God for allowing me to turn 24 today.n my frenz also look forward to celebrate with me think i'm gonna have great bday huh?well if i don't expect anything else i'll be very happy today but..i still miss one thing that makes it incomplete..n i'm still waiting.. :) eh..i got it..!!thx thx..u nv know what it means to me..

unfriendly stomach..

gosh..my stomach is very unfriendly today..i have gone in n out toilet for almost 5 times T_T..it's my fault too to drink herbal laxative tea this morning which supposed to drink at nite..thinking of losing weight by drinking it.dunno it's good or not but i think i shouldn't drink it daily..maybe should think of other way to lose weight..well, i'm very motivated to lose weight after watching my own perfomance when i was a dancer.i was so slim at that time..not like now..hahah.then talking bout tmr..what's my plan then?my fren, niece're so excited wanna celebrate my bday with me but why i don't feel like them?i dunno maybe coz i'm waiting for something..my wish to be come true on my bday.. :)

what a day..

i woke up early today..got lots of things to do in my mind.one of them are going for election but..why am i so lazy to go to embassy so..in the end i didn't go (what a bad citizen i am..hahah).so i started my day with cleaning up the mess in my house sweeping, mopping plus cleaning the kitchen wow all are done in an hour ^-^..then thinking of going out but hmh..it's been raining these few days so here i am, stuck in the house doing nothing but staring at my laptop the whole afternoon..so boring..haiz..tmr is my birthday n ppl start to send me a greetings in fb, but why i don't feel excited of turning 24 this year??well perhaps my family n my close fren..they're not here plus both of my lovely housemates're not ard..hmh..is it gonna be a miserable bday this year??well let's just see tonite..think i'll get the answer tonite or..tmr?i'm waiting....