stranger with the past

missing how we meet..
missing ur listening ear..
missing that u're always b thr..
missing our moment..
missing ur good nite..

it's gone when i realize it..
am i such a selfish if i want u..
to be always this way..

we're just strangers with the past now.
sad truth..

Yesterday was so sick..!! yeah sick of shopping.. XD

heya when most of my family n friends are getting ready to sleep, here i am just woke up in States..guess GMT-6 really made lots of difference ya.. :)

i really slept well last night after having a wonderful day doing my guilty pleasure which is SHOPPING..!!yeah shop in the Houston premium outlets is really a shopping madness..!! plus additional disc n tax free in certain store. i can say we're lucky coz this weekend is a tax free day..so we get everything in half price than usual i can say..OMG..!!

so this is the houston premium outlets..kinda big i can say..


we spend about 4 hrs in the outlets burning cash n swiping credit card for good stuff with low price..plus this is my first time to factory outlet in States so i won't miss this chance of getting good deal. i didn't really enter all the shops even so many interesting shops thr..one more thing is i'm kinda dissapointed that i couldn't find anything in Nine West n Michael Kors..but overall i can get good deal here so i'm happy with it..!! ^^

everyone's back to hotel with the big paper bags like this..!!



After 4 hrs wondering around, i got myself 2 Coach handbags n 1 clutch bag n a wristlets from Kate Spade. plus i bought some wristlets for my sis n my niece as well. My sis's been wanting the wristlet so why not if it's cheap.. next i went to DKNY to get a watch..!!yay i always like watches from DKNY, dunno i find it suits me.i got a shocking pink boyfriend shirt from thr as well and a t-shirt for my bro n nephew.. :) lastly is BCBGMAXZARIA.i got myself i top n a catchy green shorts which is just US$29 ??cheap..!!n the one in white package is a present for my niece bday..guess what it is..??for sure it's a signature item from Coach..i found it looks so classy n hope she'll like it.. :)

Then talking about the damage is making me realize money is hard to earn but easy to spend..i gotta work hard for the damage that i've made.hahah. gotta fly back to Moscow in few hours..dammit can't wait to go back singapore n enjoy my 3 off days n having nasi lemak..!!i'm craving for it now..arrghh 3 more days to go..!!

leaving on at jetplane..

yup i'm leaving for 8 days to moscow then houston...my first time thr so kinda excited..!! ^^ i love US..shopping time..woohoo..!!

slowly waiting for time to pass to 23.45..yup my transport is coming at that time..i got lots of time coz i always like to get myself ready about 2 hrs before my reporting time then while waiting why not i just blog..hehe.

well thinking about not ard for 8 days is kinda sad..i mean beside i feel excited i feel kinda sad to be far from my loved ones.ya u guys might think that as if i can see them in sg..?the answer is NO but then in sg at least i feel close to them. only 1 hour time difference, not like Moscow or even Houston..n this is what i called Pre-flight syndrome..hahaha this one is only happen to me y... :)

lastly, still have this mixed feeling since few days ago..trying to get rid of it also..i hope this trip is a total distraction for my emo...........i hope so..!! hope everything will be back to square one soon..kinda missing someone here..

me with my official make up..LOL

dunno why..

dunno why i feel lonely when i woke up this morning..
dunno why i keep missing the past..
dunno why i keep looking back..
dunno why i still seem can't let go
dunno why i have this kind of mixed feeling

someone please wake me up..
cheer me up..
i don't wanna keep falling with the same memory again n again..

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home...

gosh this old song is in my mind right now...!! this song just give those mixed feeling..here is the video n lyrics..



Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

b4 bed time...

trying to sleep early but FAILED...!!! my job has turned me become a night person n wake up late the next day...i'm trying to quit this bad habit anyway..

been feeling mentally tired.maybe coz i'm partying with others after flight till morning..n last night another drinking session again..fiuh..i need to detox now. give me a week as usual.. :)

next is my face is so reddish today coz of facial. cancel my haircut bcoz of that.lol.i have no confidence in going out with my post facial face..hope it'll get better tmr as i need to look good in front of my passenger or else gotta put on a thick layered of make up then..hate it..!!

last but not least, been feeling a lil bit guilty today. talking some stuff with my mom n she reminded me to take a good care of myself..(she know i've been drinking with friends past few days..) ya i just told her.hihi. she's like friend to me. ya i just hope i won't dissapoint her although i have i think..hmm doesn't matter then. i just wanna be a good one in my family.giving the best that i can n i hope i can always think this way... GOOD NITE..!! -_-