good morning Manchester.. :)

wake up in Manchester, mindset sets to hoiday mode.haha.yeah still in one of UK city..n today is my last day here b4 heading back to lovely homebase called Singapore tmr early morning..n here i am updating blog n having my simple breakfast which is yogurt, hot choc with cinnamon roll.well enough to fill my stomach this morning..

Wanting to go old trafford badly.so i planned to go myself while my buddies're going to Liverpool..hmh how i wish i can go both but i only have today left so decided to go Old Trafford n shop around after that..

Also today i just got a happy news, that my best friend has given birth to a little baby girl today..wow so happy to know that.n congrats for u ling..!i'm an aunty now.hahahha.dunno when will be my turn..well seems like my journey still long to go.how come i think of having a baby when i'm still single now..?kidding me.. XD but i know God has His own plan to everybody so all i have to do is wait till the time come n enjoy myself n what i'm doing now.someone said "Who said waiting is boring?while waiting u can actually do lots of things that won't make u feel bored.." yah yah he's so right.so...let's wait together..!! ^-^

To me, Life is a surprise..u wont know what's ahead u.. :)

most important thing in my life..

hey hey just back from attending hip hop class today..dance to Circus by britney.n i dunno i can't follow the steps well coz the rythm of the song is very fast..but it's good enough to make me perspire a lot.. :) that's the point..!

lots of things have distracted my mind recently..thinking bout what else things that i can do to make myself better n better..i always wanna be the best esp for the ppl ard me maybe coz i'm so scared to be forgotten by ppl ard me one day..my family n friends..i thought they're the most important thing in my life.i think i can do anything when i have them ard me..i mean i'm not scared of being alone or lonely but i'm scared of being forgotten so i always try my best to cherish what i have n who i am today..n this morning i read a blog of my fav basketball player.wow he really inspires me since i read his biography book..!i really feel proud of him n i wanna be like him..!keep fighting til the end..when i want something i always wanna get it no matter what, just sometime i must realize too that there're certain things that no matter how we try to get it, it can't be ours..my past love experience has taught me bout this.so i think thr's always a lesson to learn in out life.it's just how the way we see something.for me i always try to think positive but sometimes too positive also.hahaha..!

lastly, trying to rest few hours b4 my time to work. :) gotta do a 14hrs flight tonight to Manchester..woohoo..!first time there n i'll make sure i enjoy the trip thr..!

back..

hey i'm back after a month missing from my own blog..hahah.well it's been a month since my last post n lots of thing also had happened i can say whether it's happy or sad things.but overall i still wanna thx God for giving me this life n still be able to be happy with all my loving family n frenz.that's the most important..n thx for making me stronger day by day by letting me through those hard times.

n today i'm glad i'm still be able to get up, n writing this n also move on.time won't wait for u if u don't.so i really treasure my life more now..i'm sure God has His own plan to everybody.. "Semuanya akan indah pada waktunya.." ^-^

have a look at me last time..

one more day to clear..

yuppie tmr is my last day of training..i must perform well in order to pass the assesment. going to sleep soon. these 4 days have been a tough day for me..too many things to know for such short period..jia you..!

good night everybody.. :)

u've been wondering in my mind lately..!!

just finished studying n do homework for preparation of my training tmr..lots of things to remember arrgghh..!!

just finished talking with my best fren on the phone coz of feeling confuse lately..think my phone bill going to be a lot this month..

trying to sleep early coz gotta wake up early tmr..must adjust myself to office working hours for this week.

lastly, i hope i can be more truthful to myself not keep hiding from probs n in the end it appears in my dream..i can advise frenz not to think so much just do what we feel right but when it comes to me, it's hard.haiz.. i can say that i'm too conservative..too care of what ppl think bout me so torturing myself slowly til i blow up one day maybe..

just hope tmr will be a better day for me..dun think too much.all my concentration must go to my training.ganbatte..!

the song that represents how i feel..

歌曲名称：默默
Song Title:Mo Mo(Silently)
歌手名称：飞轮海
Singer Name:Fahrenheit (Fei Lun Hai)
专集名称：越来越爱
Album:Love You More And More

这是一个没有答案的问题
this is a question without an answer
我感觉我变了 谁让我变了
i feel that i changed, who made me change
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
from the beginning, this is a question without an answer
却被你解开了 简单的解开了
yet you solved it, in a very simple way

你走过来 带着和别人不同的对白
you came over.. bringing over a different kind of conversation from others
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好
you didn't even let me know, how good you've been treating me

慢慢的 这份爱 悄悄的住下来
slowly, this piece of love, silently settle down and lived there
深深的 在心里 没人看的出来
deeply, inside my heart and noone else can see it
安静的 但却一直都在
quietly, it was always there
是你默默的爱
is your love of silence

慢慢的 这份爱 已经变成依赖
slowly, this piece of love, turned into something i rely on
浅浅的 笑容里 却让我充满期待
shallowly, within the smile, made me full of hope..
不用说 我就能够明白
no need to say anything, i will be able to understand
你默默的爱
your love of silence

这是一个没有答案的问题
this is a question without an answer
我感觉我变了 谁让我变了
i feel that i changed, who made me change
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
from the beginning, this is a question without an answer
却被你解开了 简单的解开了
yet you solved it, in a very simple way

你走过来 带着和别人不同的对白
you came over.. bringing over a different kind of conversation from other
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好
you didn't even let me know, how good you've been treating me


未来的每一天 不管发生什么
everyday in the future, no matter what happens
能不能交给我呢
can you give it all to me..?
我要永远陪着你 守护着你直到最后
i want to be by your side forever, guard you until the end..

woke up late again..

aaargghh i failed to wake up early again today..hmh..want my body to get used to office time 'sleep early, wake up early'..since flying it's very hard to wake up early anymore..i've got 4 days of training to go for so i don't want to be sleepy in the afternoon like i always be.hahah. training always make me sleepy throughout the day..

tonight must sleep early..!!

Home Sweet Home

yo yo just added a song to my blog..
hope u guys like it..

spending my Sunday @home today.it's been a long time since i've been doing all the long flights for this month..miss staying at home for the whole day like today. cleaning my house, watch DVD n cook..!the weather today is also good (for me coz i love rainy day..!)

just got back from another europe country yesterday.i can say Rome is amazing, romantic city..but..i just can't bear with the weather thr.summer n it's terribly hot. think i've burned lots of fats thr by walking ard rome n also vatican city..walk til i can't feel the tiredness of it. i wouldn't mind walk all the way with someone special.. XD

n finally after keep stopping my temptation from shopping since in Milan, i ended shop in Rome..i got myself a Prada wallet..!yeah i take it as a reward for my hardwork for this flight then.hee.will eat grass for next month coz of it..LOL.

then my training will start in Tue.soo nervous if i think bout it. i really have to prepare myself better for it. It really not easy like working in economy class. business class has got more things to do n of course more product knowledge that die die muz know..hmh..got to study again. if ppl think being a flight attendant is easy then they're totally wrong. we're waitress, paramedic, babysitter and sometimes a listener for our passenger..n i start to love what i'm doing now.

i'm back to write again..

well well it's been almost a month that i nv updated my blog..not in the mood of writing..:)

i'm so free today so decided to dress my blog..still searching how to add a song in it..anyway back from rome yesterday and gosh..i'm tanned or i should say i'm darker after my trip to milan, venice n rome...need some time to be fair again...!!hate it..!

tan skin tone definitely not suit me at all i guess..will update again then.busy dressing my blog.hee.

almost fell sick...

finally i'm in States, in San Fransisco exactly..after the 6 hours flight to seoul then 10 hours flight to here..damn..i couldnt focus n work well during the flight to seoul..hmh..dunno what happen maybe it's bcoz i had too many days off n things that happened recently cause me like that.i really dissapoint my leader, but luckily she's nice person so she helped a lot.then when i try to do my best during flight to SFO, i got a headache n my stomach feels bloated till i have to rest in first class after the service..haiz..dunno what's happening with me maybe i'm just too tired..thanks God i feel better now.then it's 10 p.m. local time here, n i'm gonna try to sleep after this coz tmr i'm gonna go to some interesting places like alcatraz n golden gate bridge..wow! i can't wait to be thr..!!hope i can find way to go thr myself bcoz if join the tour it's gonna burn my US$..haha so i'm trying to save so i can also shop ard.. :) then today when i sat on the seat during landing, suddenly i realize one thing which is very impt to me..that i shouldn't keep wasting my tears thinking of the past that couldn't back..??coz everyone is living for tomorrow rite not for the past..well that's absolutely right..!!but again action speaks louder that words..able to say also must able to do it..!ganbatte.. ^-^

starting all over again..

well i should have sleeping rite now coz i have to wake up at 4 later to prepare to go to seoul..gonna be oversea for a week..haiz..actually i don't feel wanna go but i have no choice.hope it's gonna be a nice trip..!my first time to go San Fransisco too..ya hopefully!!then i just came back from celebrating my cousin's bday which is 1 day ahead than me.it was fun everybody was so happy thr..plus i got a super huge bday card from my niece n nephew..they made it themselves, really so cute of them..what an effort..!!at least it can cheer me up a lil bit today. hmh..still hurt coz of something on my bday ystrdy..but i really have to start all over again coz this person (the one who affect me a lot..) also gonna start a new life soon so i think i should too..just that i dunno why after everything that has been done to me i don't hate this person at all..i still wanna congrats for starting a new life soon.just that i'm still fragile now so i'm not ready to accept this person again in my life.i should learn to protect my own feeling now.enough all the pain that i bear myself.now it's time to fix the broken heart..jia you..!i need to move on n so is this person..

unforgettable bday..

like the title, i really have an unforgettable bday this year..haiz..why should it happen when i turn 24??but good or bad things happened to me, i still believe everything will be good when it's the time..just that i thought everything will be wonderful today but..something just went wrong this evening.not coz of the dinner.it was really good n i got a surprise cake somemore..my fridge is full of my bday cake now..hahaha.how i wish i can say it out what the things that went wrong on my bday..tird of keeping it myself but i dunno why i can't..dun wanna involve anybody here.whatever it is it's my fault couldn't blame anybody of it.maybe like my fren said what had happened is "blessing in disguise.." i hope so..so trying to sleep now after drinking a glass of red wine.i really feel tired both my body n my mind but..i still need to do few things b4 i rest myself.coz tmr i'll make sure it's a better day than today..

happy bday sil..

woke up late this morning coz couldn't sleep well last night..my handphone keep ringing coz of the greetings sms that i received :) plus midnite surprise cake from my housemates that i nv expected at all..!can't help to fall tears..see my plain sleepy face..!n this morning when i check my fb wah so surprised..!my wall full of the greetings from frenz..so glad to know that..n finally..i've made a plan for tonite..DINNER at the flyer..sounds great..!i rem one month ago, my wish is to go singapore flyer n spend my bday with the loved one. but, since it's impossible then dinner with my family in sg also not bad.they're my loved one too..i should've thank God for allowing me to turn 24 today.n my frenz also look forward to celebrate with me think i'm gonna have great bday huh?well if i don't expect anything else i'll be very happy today but..i still miss one thing that makes it incomplete..n i'm still waiting.. :) eh..i got it..!!thx thx..u nv know what it means to me..

unfriendly stomach..

gosh..my stomach is very unfriendly today..i have gone in n out toilet for almost 5 times T_T..it's my fault too to drink herbal laxative tea this morning which supposed to drink at nite..thinking of losing weight by drinking it.dunno it's good or not but i think i shouldn't drink it daily..maybe should think of other way to lose weight..well, i'm very motivated to lose weight after watching my own perfomance when i was a dancer.i was so slim at that time..not like now..hahah.then talking bout tmr..what's my plan then?my fren, niece're so excited wanna celebrate my bday with me but why i don't feel like them?i dunno maybe coz i'm waiting for something..my wish to be come true on my bday.. :)

what a day..

i woke up early today..got lots of things to do in my mind.one of them are going for election but..why am i so lazy to go to embassy so..in the end i didn't go (what a bad citizen i am..hahah).so i started my day with cleaning up the mess in my house sweeping, mopping plus cleaning the kitchen wow all are done in an hour ^-^..then thinking of going out but hmh..it's been raining these few days so here i am, stuck in the house doing nothing but staring at my laptop the whole afternoon..so boring..haiz..tmr is my birthday n ppl start to send me a greetings in fb, but why i don't feel excited of turning 24 this year??well perhaps my family n my close fren..they're not here plus both of my lovely housemates're not ard..hmh..is it gonna be a miserable bday this year??well let's just see tonite..think i'll get the answer tonite or..tmr?i'm waiting....