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2011 first post.. :D

2011-06-10T18:57:00.002+08:00

wow after so long n almost being forgotten..i'm blogging again..!! :D

so this is my 2011 first blog which i'm currently in Sao Paolo, Brazil..OLA..!!again n always this is my early morning blogging coz of jetlag..yeah no surprise anymore knowing me to suffer from jetlag..

well the weather is quite chill here but i hope it will get better in the afternoon. Its city itself is u gotta be very careful. Heard they're gonna use weapons to rob..yeah it's really scary here which makes me think twice to go n tour around..so we'll see if the majority is going out maybe i will. It's safer to go in a group.

Will post some pics if i manage to go out n tour around. In the meantime, enjoy ur weekend guys..!!

PS i can't wait to go back home.. ( 5 more days to go..)

it's 4.36 am here in Paris..

2010-11-08T11:36:00.006+08:00

yah wake up freaking early n still trying to sleep back but feel like blogging a while after my absence for 2 months maybe.. :D well here i am in Paris for the third time. The weather here start to be cold, it's about 6-11 degrees i think..i don't mind with the coldness but raining?hmm makes Paris so gloomy.. :) well this time i'm thinking of spending my clear day by going galeries la fayette then a to a place called sacre coeur..one of my coll told me it's a beautiful place but i have no idea how it's look like..i always like to walk ard in paris so trying to figure out new places that i nv been to each time in here..

btw i really enjoy my evening walk in paris last night..!!here are some of the pics.. :)

i bought this lovely green umbrella from ZARA..cost me 9.95 EUR n i'm lovin it..!! ^^

n the 2 gorgeous lady that accompany me.. :)

i'm always amazed everytime i walk pass this big building.. Arc de Triomphe

well i should be trying to sleep now n will b waking up at 7 for bfast...zzzz
XOXO

stranger with the past

2010-08-27T02:11:00.002+08:00

missing how we meet..
missing ur listening ear..
missing that u're always b thr..
missing our moment..
missing ur good nite..

it's gone when i realize it..
am i such a selfish if i want u..
to be always this way..

we're just strangers with the past now.
sad truth..

Yesterday was so sick..!! yeah sick of shopping.. XD

2010-08-22T00:08:00.004+08:00

heya when most of my family n friends are getting ready to sleep, here i am just woke up in States..guess GMT-6 really made lots of difference ya.. :)

i really slept well last night after having a wonderful day doing my guilty pleasure which is SHOPPING..!!yeah shop in the Houston premium outlets is really a shopping madness..!! plus additional disc n tax free in certain store. i can say we're lucky coz this weekend is a tax free day..so we get everything in half price than usual i can say..OMG..!!

so this is the houston premium outlets..kinda big i can say..

we spend about 4 hrs in the outlets burning cash n swiping credit card for good stuff with low price..plus this is my first time to factory outlet in States so i won't miss this chance of getting good deal. i didn't really enter all the shops even so many interesting shops thr..one more thing is i'm kinda dissapointed that i couldn't find anything in Nine West n Michael Kors..but overall i can get good deal here so i'm happy with it..!! ^^

everyone's back to hotel with the big paper bags like this..!!

After 4 hrs wondering around, i got myself 2 Coach handbags n 1 clutch bag n a wristlets from Kate Spade. plus i bought some wristlets for my sis n my niece as well. My sis's been wanting the wristlet so why not if it's cheap.. next i went to DKNY to get a watch..!!yay i always like watches from DKNY, dunno i find it suits me.i got a shocking pink boyfriend shirt from thr as well and a t-shirt for my bro n nephew.. :) lastly is BCBGMAXZARIA.i got myself i top n a catchy green shorts which is just US$29 ??cheap..!!n the one in white package is a present for my niece bday..guess what it is..??for sure it's a signature item from Coach..i found it looks so classy n hope she'll like it.. :)

Then talking about the damage is making me realize money is hard to earn but easy to spend..i gotta work hard for the damage that i've made.hahah. gotta fly back to Moscow in few hours..dammit can't wait to go back singapore n enjoy my 3 off days n having nasi lemak..!!i'm craving for it now..arrghh 3 more days to go..!!

leaving on at jetplane..

2010-08-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

yup i'm leaving for 8 days to moscow then houston...my first time thr so kinda excited..!! ^^ i love US..shopping time..woohoo..!!

slowly waiting for time to pass to 23.45..yup my transport is coming at that time..i got lots of time coz i always like to get myself ready about 2 hrs before my reporting time then while waiting why not i just blog..hehe.

well thinking about not ard for 8 days is kinda sad..i mean beside i feel excited i feel kinda sad to be far from my loved ones.ya u guys might think that as if i can see them in sg..?the answer is NO but then in sg at least i feel close to them. only 1 hour time difference, not like Moscow or even Houston..n this is what i called Pre-flight syndrome..hahaha this one is only happen to me y... :)

lastly, still have this mixed feeling since few days ago..trying to get rid of it also..i hope this trip is a total distraction for my emo...........i hope so..!! hope everything will be back to square one soon..kinda missing someone here..

me with my official make up..LOL

dunno why..

2010-08-13T13:29:00.002+08:00

dunno why i feel lonely when i woke up this morning..
dunno why i keep missing the past..
dunno why i keep looking back..
dunno why i still seem can't let go
dunno why i have this kind of mixed feeling

someone please wake me up..
cheer me up..
i don't wanna keep falling with the same memory again n again..

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home...

2010-08-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

gosh this old song is in my mind right now...!! this song just give those mixed feeling..here is the video n lyrics..

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

b4 bed time...

2010-08-03T00:43:00.002+08:00

trying to sleep early but FAILED...!!! my job has turned me become a night person n wake up late the next day...i'm trying to quit this bad habit anyway..

been feeling mentally tired.maybe coz i'm partying with others after flight till morning..n last night another drinking session again..fiuh..i need to detox now. give me a week as usual.. :)

next is my face is so reddish today coz of facial. cancel my haircut bcoz of that.lol.i have no confidence in going out with my post facial face..hope it'll get better tmr as i need to look good in front of my passenger or else gotta put on a thick layered of make up then..hate it..!!

last but not least, been feeling a lil bit guilty today. talking some stuff with my mom n she reminded me to take a good care of myself..(she know i've been drinking with friends past few days..) ya i just told her.hihi. she's like friend to me. ya i just hope i won't dissapoint her although i have i think..hmm doesn't matter then. i just wanna be a good one in my family.giving the best that i can n i hope i can always think this way... GOOD NITE..!! -_-

GOOoooooOOOd Morning Holland.... :)

2010-07-25T12:48:00.003+08:00

------- Sunday, July 25th 2010 06.49 am --------

Wake up so early here, in Amsterdam..i dunno why everytime in Europe station i'll wake up early..how i wish i can too in sg.. :)

Well i'm glad that i still have clear day in Amsterdam today. u guys dunno that i love this city so much..!my third time in here n i still wish to stay here one day..this city has got all i like..trees n river in almost every corner, nice buildings that makes u feel so cozy walking ard plus seeing the ppl still biking so the traffic isn't that heavy here..it sounds like a town, doesn't it?but NO there's night life here also..bars everywhere n shopping too...!! so personally i feel Amsterdam is like a city but yet a town. Always feel good walking ard this city even u're alone. is it i'm too easy to please person but seriusly i really do feel good walking around myself in here.. XD

Well gotta go down the hotel restaurant for the 50% buffet restaurant in the hotel with my colleagues. Loving american bfast now.. :) will update soon.. Enjoy Sunday everyone esp U.. XOXO

WE stay in this Marriot hotel, the hotel is just renovated n it's sooo nice n cozy..!! will post more pic if i got chance to snap.. ^^

982 night...!!

2010-07-22T21:10:00.012+08:00

Yo what's up...? :) had a blast night with my batchies last night..!ya my batch boy n batch girl. We use 'batch' for a group of crew during training. So last night we decided to gather although not all can make it but this is the first time after long time we never meet..yeah flying makes us hard to meet each other..

WE really had fun last night including myself..playing game, poisoning each other with the wine and beer then dancing all night long.. :) it was all great but one thing that spoil my whole night is the LONG ISLAND TEA...!!gosh they made everyone drink to this yucky drink including me...!!bcoz of this i vomitted the whole night n end up sleeping in my living room..gosh my dress is included too. XD anyway this is some of our pic of me n my batchies..miss them much...!!

gathering @Zouk wine bar... :)

from left : Tanny, Dephne, Me, Chai, Serene, Yun, Rachel, Gordon..

this is me n one of my housemate YUN, she's like mother to me coz she cooks well :)

me n baby dephne..she's the youngest in our batch

me n serene..

cheers everyone..!!

talk to me babe...

2010-07-21T13:20:00.003+08:00

How can i love you, how can i love you, how can i love you..
If u just don't talk to me babe..

Yeah this is the favorite parts of the ping pong song lyrics that was recommendeded by a friend about one year ago..?i was very down at that time n i dunno why he reccommend me this song.. maybe i was like loving someone that in a rush to throw me away situation at that time..? LOL. well still liking this song esp the part that i mentioned above. that's y i always request the band to sing this song when i chill out in bar. unfortunately they never sing this song for me.. :( so i just listen to enrique sing it live then..hehe. still hoping to hear a band playing this song one day. anyway here's the link of this song also. enjoy..!! the beginning is awesome, don't u think so?

Doesn't Matter..

2010-07-19T23:29:00.004+08:00

We have nothing, but..
why is it u the one that comes on my mind
when i start to awake in the morning?
and before i end the night?

But it doesn't matter
Coz everyday is still a day that i have to go through..
happily or sadly,
with or without thinking of u..

Doesn't matter..
Just take it like a breakfast in the morning
and supper at night..

Gotta close this eyes and end tonight.. -_-

The Perfect Dream

2010-07-19T18:48:00.002+08:00

Is there any way to ask the stars
And when i begin to feel the language of silence..?
Awaken me, the one who walks in the emptiness
silenced, stunned, stammed, everything in doubt

Me and everyone who's being hurt because of us..

I'm gonna dissapear in the dark of the night
Flying freely..
Let me ask the stars
about the meaning of us in the perfect dream

(translated from PeterPan song "Mimpi yang Sempurna")

happy cleaning...!!! :)

2010-07-18T14:30:00.002+08:00

fiuhhhh i just did house cleaning today.done in 1.5 hrs.my flat isn't so big thou..

always feels good everytime i clean my house even though can feel my hands become so rough.yeah sweeping, mopping, brushing..

for post cleaning i love to turn on the air con n light up the aromatherapy. n tadaa the whole house smells good..!! :)

well will go to town to watch inception with friend. hope the movie is as good as the trailer..

:)

2010-07-18T12:16:00.002+08:00

It wasn't a short meeting but it wasn't that long as well. If only situations were different from what it is now, I actually might fall in love with you again..

a pics of mine..

2010-07-18T10:51:00.005+08:00

did some editing for few old pics of me..one of my distraction... :) comments are welcome..anyway feeling weak today. guess i need a break for a while. catch up soon.

GOOoooooOOOd Morning...!!

2010-07-16T09:29:00.003+08:00

Hey morning everyone here comes another weekend..!!time goes faster that i imagine...anyway going for my recurrent SEP today..it's ditching time so let's get wet...!!

underneath your clothes...

2010-07-15T01:24:00.004+08:00

one of shakira's timeless song n also my all time favourite :

i love this song soo much...it hooked on me since first time i heard it long long time ago..n now i got it back in my mp3 list. :)

Do u know that this song is actually very emotional song?? This song is about the person that you love. How you trust them with things other people don't know and how that person will always be there even after everybody else leaves. It is about deeply in love instead of lust like its title...well that's the conclusion after i do some research about it.. :) simple song but yet strong meaning..enjoy the emotion within it..!!

SHAKIRA rockzz..!!

funny...!!!

2010-07-10T14:18:00.005+08:00

hey sudd found this funny clip that we made from my best friend wedding party last Jan..enjoy..n OMG i look horrible...!! XD XD but still decide to share this..let's laugh together...!! XD

Like it? wait thr's still behind the scene video which is worse than this..!!will upload when i got time. think my friends gonna kill me for leaking this out.. :p

And i just gonna stop this...

2010-07-10T12:34:00.004+08:00

I'd never know what's on your mind,
and i just gonna give up to figure it out..
Wanna be kind to myself now
Not gonna bother anymore..
If u're the one,
Let time brings u next to me
Even i doubt that day will come
Gonna wait at the borderline
Till that comes, i'm just gonna love myself more n more
Depends on noone...
Then i'll know
I'm gonna be stronger
And gonna be okay.. :)

XOXO

Jangan memilih Aku..

2010-07-10T12:29:00.002+08:00

Never ever choose me if u can't be faithful
You just don't understand me
The one who ever being hurt..

a new day has come..

2010-01-16T02:18:00.002+08:00

a new day has come for one of my best friend..YES her marriage is today 16th Jan 2010.that's why i'm specially spend my 2 days off from my london flight to fly back hometown to attend her wedding dinner..n i'm just back from helping her to decorate her room n ktv to 'scream' for some song with her...happy for her but also wondering when is my turn.haha..!!

trying to sleep now coz i'm going to attend my other friend marriage early morning..well why seems everybody gets married early in here my hometown..??hmh..lucky i'm not staying here anymore if not then i'll be so desperate now.still single while most of my friends are married n some even have their kids.. :) well i just hope my wait is for good..

ok gotta go wash my face n sleep now..!!

suddenly remember you..

2010-01-13T18:27:00.002+08:00

well it's been long time i nv updated my blog n this is my first update in 2010..haha. pretty busy lately n things seems going on well i can say..my job is the one who keeps me occupied most of the time..so i'm in london now n going out to get something for my lunch soon but since yesterday i suddenly think bout him? wondering since when i start to notice about him?hmh...trying to let it flow coz i'm really afraid to fall into the same mistake again..must be careful in love this time.hahha.if only love can choose it won't be so complicated rite..

gonna go to get my lunch now..pretty cold in out there but i prefer to go out rather than having in room dining that is costly. will update again when i'm sure about how i feel.. :)

good morning Manchester.. :)

2009-11-10T17:52:00.002+08:00

wake up in Manchester, mindset sets to hoiday mode.haha.yeah still in one of UK city..n today is my last day here b4 heading back to lovely homebase called Singapore tmr early morning..n here i am updating blog n having my simple breakfast which is yogurt, hot choc with cinnamon roll.well enough to fill my stomach this morning..

Wanting to go old trafford badly.so i planned to go myself while my buddies're going to Liverpool..hmh how i wish i can go both but i only have today left so decided to go Old Trafford n shop around after that..

Also today i just got a happy news, that my best friend has given birth to a little baby girl today..wow so happy to know that.n congrats for u ling..!i'm an aunty now.hahahha.dunno when will be my turn..well seems like my journey still long to go.how come i think of having a baby when i'm still single now..?kidding me.. XD but i know God has His own plan to everybody so all i have to do is wait till the time come n enjoy myself n what i'm doing now.someone said "Who said waiting is boring?while waiting u can actually do lots of things that won't make u feel bored.." yah yah he's so right.so...let's wait together..!! ^-^

To me, Life is a surprise..u wont know what's ahead u.. :)

most important thing in my life..

2009-11-07T14:51:00.005+08:00

hey hey just back from attending hip hop class today..dance to Circus by britney.n i dunno i can't follow the steps well coz the rythm of the song is very fast..but it's good enough to make me perspire a lot.. :) that's the point..!

lots of things have distracted my mind recently..thinking bout what else things that i can do to make myself better n better..i always wanna be the best esp for the ppl ard me maybe coz i'm so scared to be forgotten by ppl ard me one day..my family n friends..i thought they're the most important thing in my life.i think i can do anything when i have them ard me..i mean i'm not scared of being alone or lonely but i'm scared of being forgotten so i always try my best to cherish what i have n who i am today..n this morning i read a blog of my fav basketball player.wow he really inspires me since i read his biography book..!i really feel proud of him n i wanna be like him..!keep fighting til the end..when i want something i always wanna get it no matter what, just sometime i must realize too that there're certain things that no matter how we try to get it, it can't be ours..my past love experience has taught me bout this.so i think thr's always a lesson to learn in out life.it's just how the way we see something.for me i always try to think positive but sometimes too positive also.hahaha..!

lastly, trying to rest few hours b4 my time to work. :) gotta do a 14hrs flight tonight to Manchester..woohoo..!first time there n i'll make sure i enjoy the trip thr..!

back..

2009-11-06T08:21:00.003+08:00

hey i'm back after a month missing from my own blog..hahah.well it's been a month since my last post n lots of thing also had happened i can say whether it's happy or sad things.but overall i still wanna thx God for giving me this life n still be able to be happy with all my loving family n frenz.that's the most important..n thx for making me stronger day by day by letting me through those hard times.

n today i'm glad i'm still be able to get up, n writing this n also move on.time won't wait for u if u don't.so i really treasure my life more now..i'm sure God has His own plan to everybody.. "Semuanya akan indah pada waktunya.." ^-^

have a look at me last time..

2009-09-29T01:25:00.002+08:00

one more day to clear..

2009-09-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

yuppie tmr is my last day of training..i must perform well in order to pass the assesment. going to sleep soon. these 4 days have been a tough day for me..too many things to know for such short period..jia you..!

good night everybody.. :)

u've been wondering in my mind lately..!!

2009-08-31T21:52:00.002+08:00

just finished studying n do homework for preparation of my training tmr..lots of things to remember arrgghh..!!

just finished talking with my best fren on the phone coz of feeling confuse lately..think my phone bill going to be a lot this month..

trying to sleep early coz gotta wake up early tmr..must adjust myself to office working hours for this week.

lastly, i hope i can be more truthful to myself not keep hiding from probs n in the end it appears in my dream..i can advise frenz not to think so much just do what we feel right but when it comes to me, it's hard.haiz.. i can say that i'm too conservative..too care of what ppl think bout me so torturing myself slowly til i blow up one day maybe..

just hope tmr will be a better day for me..dun think too much.all my concentration must go to my training.ganbatte..!

the song that represents how i feel..

2009-08-31T18:43:00.004+08:00

歌曲名称：默默
Song Title:Mo Mo(Silently)
歌手名称：飞轮海
Singer Name:Fahrenheit (Fei Lun Hai)
专集名称：越来越爱
Album:Love You More And More

这是一个没有答案的问题
this is a question without an answer
我感觉我变了谁让我变了
i feel that i changed, who made me change
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
from the beginning, this is a question without an answer
却被你解开了简单的解开了
yet you solved it, in a very simple way

你走过来带着和别人不同的对白
you came over.. bringing over a different kind of conversation from others
你甚至不让我知道你对我有多好
you didn't even let me know, how good you've been treating me

慢慢的这份爱悄悄的住下来
slowly, this piece of love, silently settle down and lived there
深深的在心里没人看的出来
deeply, inside my heart and noone else can see it
安静的但却一直都在
quietly, it was always there
是你默默的爱
is your love of silence

慢慢的这份爱已经变成依赖
slowly, this piece of love, turned into something i rely on
浅浅的笑容里却让我充满期待
shallowly, within the smile, made me full of hope..
不用说我就能够明白
no need to say anything, i will be able to understand
你默默的爱
your love of silence

这是一个没有答案的问题
this is a question without an answer
我感觉我变了谁让我变了
i feel that i changed, who made me change
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
from the beginning, this is a question without an answer
却被你解开了简单的解开了
yet you solved it, in a very simple way

你走过来带着和别人不同的对白
you came over.. bringing over a different kind of conversation from other
你甚至不让我知道你对我有多好
you didn't even let me know, how good you've been treating me

未来的每一天不管发生什么
everyday in the future, no matter what happens
能不能交给我呢
can you give it all to me..?
我要永远陪着你守护着你直到最后
i want to be by your side forever, guard you until the end..

woke up late again..

2009-08-31T11:54:00.002+08:00

aaargghh i failed to wake up early again today..hmh..want my body to get used to office time 'sleep early, wake up early'..since flying it's very hard to wake up early anymore..i've got 4 days of training to go for so i don't want to be sleepy in the afternoon like i always be.hahah. training always make me sleepy throughout the day..

tonight must sleep early..!!

Home Sweet Home

2009-08-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

yo yo just added a song to my blog..
hope u guys like it..

spending my Sunday @home today.it's been a long time since i've been doing all the long flights for this month..miss staying at home for the whole day like today. cleaning my house, watch DVD n cook..!the weather today is also good (for me coz i love rainy day..!)

just got back from another europe country yesterday.i can say Rome is amazing, romantic city..but..i just can't bear with the weather thr.summer n it's terribly hot. think i've burned lots of fats thr by walking ard rome n also vatican city..walk til i can't feel the tiredness of it. i wouldn't mind walk all the way with someone special.. XD

n finally after keep stopping my temptation from shopping since in Milan, i ended shop in Rome..i got myself a Prada wallet..!yeah i take it as a reward for my hardwork for this flight then.hee.will eat grass for next month coz of it..LOL.

then my training will start in Tue.soo nervous if i think bout it. i really have to prepare myself better for it. It really not easy like working in economy class. business class has got more things to do n of course more product knowledge that die die muz know..hmh..got to study again. if ppl think being a flight attendant is easy then they're totally wrong. we're waitress, paramedic, babysitter and sometimes a listener for our passenger..n i start to love what i'm doing now.

i'm back to write again..

2009-08-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

well well it's been almost a month that i nv updated my blog..not in the mood of writing..:)

i'm so free today so decided to dress my blog..still searching how to add a song in it..anyway back from rome yesterday and gosh..i'm tanned or i should say i'm darker after my trip to milan, venice n rome...need some time to be fair again...!!hate it..!

tan skin tone definitely not suit me at all i guess..will update again then.busy dressing my blog.hee.

almost fell sick...

2009-07-13T12:41:00.000+08:00

finally i'm in States, in San Fransisco exactly..after the 6 hours flight to seoul then 10 hours flight to here..damn..i couldnt focus n work well during the flight to seoul..hmh..dunno what happen maybe it's bcoz i had too many days off n things that happened recently cause me like that.i really dissapoint my leader, but luckily she's nice person so she helped a lot.then when i try to do my best during flight to SFO, i got a headache n my stomach feels bloated till i have to rest in first class after the service..haiz..dunno what's happening with me maybe i'm just too tired..thanks God i feel better now.then it's 10 p.m. local time here, n i'm gonna try to sleep after this coz tmr i'm gonna go to some interesting places like alcatraz n golden gate bridge..wow! i can't wait to be thr..!!hope i can find way to go thr myself bcoz if join the tour it's gonna burn my US$..haha so i'm trying to save so i can also shop ard.. :) then today when i sat on the seat during landing, suddenly i realize one thing which is very impt to me..that i shouldn't keep wasting my tears thinking of the past that couldn't back..??coz everyone is living for tomorrow rite not for the past..well that's absolutely right..!!but again action speaks louder that words..able to say also must able to do it..!ganbatte.. ^-^

starting all over again..

2009-07-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

well i should have sleeping rite now coz i have to wake up at 4 later to prepare to go to seoul..gonna be oversea for a week..haiz..actually i don't feel wanna go but i have no choice.hope it's gonna be a nice trip..!my first time to go San Fransisco too..ya hopefully!!then i just came back from celebrating my cousin's bday which is 1 day ahead than me.it was fun everybody was so happy thr..plus i got a super huge bday card from my niece n nephew..they made it themselves, really so cute of them..what an effort..!!at least it can cheer me up a lil bit today. hmh..still hurt coz of something on my bday ystrdy..but i really have to start all over again coz this person (the one who affect me a lot..) also gonna start a new life soon so i think i should too..just that i dunno why after everything that has been done to me i don't hate this person at all..i still wanna congrats for starting a new life soon.just that i'm still fragile now so i'm not ready to accept this person again in my life.i should learn to protect my own feeling now.enough all the pain that i bear myself.now it's time to fix the broken heart..jia you..!i need to move on n so is this person..

unforgettable bday..

2009-07-10T00:31:00.000+08:00

like the title, i really have an unforgettable bday this year..haiz..why should it happen when i turn 24??but good or bad things happened to me, i still believe everything will be good when it's the time..just that i thought everything will be wonderful today but..something just went wrong this evening.not coz of the dinner.it was really good n i got a surprise cake somemore..my fridge is full of my bday cake now..hahaha.how i wish i can say it out what the things that went wrong on my bday..tird of keeping it myself but i dunno why i can't..dun wanna involve anybody here.whatever it is it's my fault couldn't blame anybody of it.maybe like my fren said what had happened is "blessing in disguise.." i hope so..so trying to sleep now after drinking a glass of red wine.i really feel tired both my body n my mind but..i still need to do few things b4 i rest myself.coz tmr i'll make sure it's a better day than today..

happy bday sil..

2009-07-09T11:08:00.000+08:00

woke up late this morning coz couldn't sleep well last night..my handphone keep ringing coz of the greetings sms that i received :) plus midnite surprise cake from my housemates that i nv expected at all..!can't help to fall tears..see my plain sleepy face..!n this morning when i check my fb wah so surprised..!my wall full of the greetings from frenz..so glad to know that..n finally..i've made a plan for tonite..DINNER at the flyer..sounds great..!i rem one month ago, my wish is to go singapore flyer n spend my bday with the loved one. but, since it's impossible then dinner with my family in sg also not bad.they're my loved one too..i should've thank God for allowing me to turn 24 today.n my frenz also look forward to celebrate with me think i'm gonna have great bday huh?well if i don't expect anything else i'll be very happy today but..i still miss one thing that makes it incomplete..n i'm still waiting.. :) eh..i got it..!!thx thx..u nv know what it means to me..

unfriendly stomach..

2009-07-08T23:18:00.003+08:00

gosh..my stomach is very unfriendly today..i have gone in n out toilet for almost 5 times T_T..it's my fault too to drink herbal laxative tea this morning which supposed to drink at nite..thinking of losing weight by drinking it.dunno it's good or not but i think i shouldn't drink it daily..maybe should think of other way to lose weight..well, i'm very motivated to lose weight after watching my own perfomance when i was a dancer.i was so slim at that time..not like now..hahah.then talking bout tmr..what's my plan then?my fren, niece're so excited wanna celebrate my bday with me but why i don't feel like them?i dunno maybe coz i'm waiting for something..my wish to be come true on my bday.. :)

what a day..

2009-07-08T17:17:00.000+08:00

i woke up early today..got lots of things to do in my mind.one of them are going for election but..why am i so lazy to go to embassy so..in the end i didn't go (what a bad citizen i am..hahah).so i started my day with cleaning up the mess in my house sweeping, mopping plus cleaning the kitchen wow all are done in an hour ^-^..then thinking of going out but hmh..it's been raining these few days so here i am, stuck in the house doing nothing but staring at my laptop the whole afternoon..so boring..haiz..tmr is my birthday n ppl start to send me a greetings in fb, but why i don't feel excited of turning 24 this year??well perhaps my family n my close fren..they're not here plus both of my lovely housemates're not ard..hmh..is it gonna be a miserable bday this year??well let's just see tonite..think i'll get the answer tonite or..tmr?i'm waiting....